backstabbing and karma

This is how the world isnt it ?

Sometimes, i judge myself... i think i can conclude i am a selfish person.. to a certain extend. I am quite insensitive actually.... i hurt people's feelings which i am not conscious of.. hrmm.. at times i am so scared of myself... offending people... I should apologize. Perhaps it's a good time..

Other bad things..
1. span of attention to things i dont like - will mang jang/get irritated.
2. shout ...er wait.. SCREAM...
3. cry when no one sees it..
4. Can be very emotional sometimes..

Well this time around... bunch of my friends which i hang out with started bitching behind my back.. it is upsetting but well... it happens.. but it'll be a lie if i wasnt disturbed by it...

Anyway.. i have been ... quite busy especially at work. Other times, i am just spending time at home trying to clean up the house. Apart from that, i have a day trip down to Sg end of the month....... the time when i super broke... cant even sneak to go off shopping.. :( thank god she mom didnt keep my passport though.... nonetheless, i did ask mom whether she had sing dollars because i thought it would save time for me to go to the money changers.. She said it was in the safe....

to ask was the worst decision in my entire life... why you might ask...

1. My mom is in london, hence not able to open the safe
2. Dad.......... asked more question than trying to help me out
3. Dad ask shawn to crack open the safe with his bare foot..
4. Pam.. not helping at all
5. i tried gazillion times and.... rewind... my attention span was running out..
6. Andy tried too...

Today mom msged me on msn.. and told me that................ she gave us the wrong sequence to the safe.......and she only found that out during pangsai time...wtffffff..........*swt

let me go somewhere and slap someone and come back.. *pause

karma .. karma.... ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........ohmmmmmmmmm