It got me thinking.....

It did... i learnt something new today... i learn to shut up.... seriously.... not just shut up, shut up... but shut up...

let me tell you something bout my family..... not really a dark secret.. but just something which most probably every other family is experiencing.. but today.. it's just one of them days which i decided to 'understand' or rather, digest... and move forward...

My mom has not been feeling well this year... typical of my chinky chong family.. every year, it's a norm for mom to go back to ipoh and seek a fortune teller? i dont know.. something close to that and of course, this person will tell you vaguely what stuff that you will experience within the same year. Unfortunate as it seems, we try to oblige, just incase.

This includes the story of my mom's sickness. As in, this year, the medium/fortune teller said that it's not a good year for mom's health.. Well she's improving surely, but slowly. Of course for the past. say... 2 months, she has been ... in and out of the norms.. Chest pain, difficult breathing, coughs, flu, throat and all.

2 days ago, she started taking those inhaler, err... whassamacallit... i dont know, one of them things for asthmatic people.. Of course it hit me in the face that a dust free place for her to sleep in would be better. The chore was a confirmed one when my god mom called and requested for my bro to pass the message and ask me to help mom out with the work.. i knew i couldnt find any reason to reschedule the spring clean.

Today was the day i got my mom's room squeeky clean. I think it's 90% dust free. Well i hope the condition will help the least.

Having said that, let me list out the things that i did..
1) changed the new blinds (which has been delayed since the last decade) initially mom didnt want the blinds because it has gaps over it and she wanted black out instead of a 60% opacity, yes she was being a fuss pot but we didnt get to doing it because no one wanted/offered to help.
2) changed her super dusty curtains. You cannot imagine the amount of dust behind them curtains.. i had to put on a mask.
3) cleaned the cabinets and cupboards (of course, through out the years, there will most definitely have a thin layer of dust on the cupboard surface)
4) Washed the air con filters
5) Change the sheets, her bed weights a million tonnes.
6) Vacuum the floor
7) Mop the floor
8) Wipe the fan blades

I wanted to wash the toilet.. but i was too tired then.. it took me.. bout... 4 hours non stop doing the above. The blinds part and dusting/wiping the windows was just crazy. It's at hard to reach places, or we are just bad space designers. Every place that i needed to wipe had an obstruction.

Of course, the above could have been done a tad bit faster if i had assistance. My sister, which i hardly talk to these days... or better yet see her is of no use of such assistance but if you were even bothered to ask for the help you need, It will come with a price to pay, which it's not worth paying for. My brother, whom claims to have exams and all wasnt of much help. My parents? of course not. If they didnt need my help, I wouldnt be doing it... aint it?. Duh.

That was it... the thing that came slapping in my face..

I had so many questions in my mind.. and a whole universe of reversal came back to me....

Why is it so hard to get some help? I just needed to clean the room. Why is it so hard to change things? I wanted to rearrange some stuff... No one helped because the obvious expression on their face is just shown.Why is it so hard to ask for a contribution to upgrade our lifestyle? I just wanted to enjoy a new facility which everyone will be able to share. But there will be rejections because no one wants to cough out the amount. Why are your priorities different? At times, i really wish i was the selfish bitch which couldnt give no cheek bout whats happening. Infact, i have to start thinking that the world revolves around me already. Why is it so hard to make people realise things? That family matter matters and there is always a reason to initiate doing anything.... chores, proposing for upgrade, changing for the better to everyone's benefit. it's not just a selfish decision...

Funny.

Hence, learning to do it, get it done, shut up....... and maybe rant here.

I am not upset but it just got me thinking.. perhaps be in their shoes, i my as well enjoy myself too huh?

Note to self: Do what you please and only wish to do and shut up your mouth dot com